Not gonna lie, this annual post always takes the longest to write (you can read past years here and here). I actually started it in January, weeks before our anniversary, but it’s hard to summarize a year of marriage into a single blog post, so I took a break 1/2 way through and now it’s April and I don’t like anything that I wrote before. So here we go with a fresh version:
Our third year of marriage has been full of my questions, like “How can we really have it this good?” and “Is it really possible to be this happy with your partner?” and “What are we doing right that we can share with others?” because hearing about marriage problems now makes me incredibly sad. I want everyone to be happy and full of love. We are at the age of almost-30 when some of our friends are getting divorced and several others are starting to have growing pains, which means frequent fights, patterns of ignoring, and short-term separations. Husband and I are not naive-we fully expect that some years of marriage will be harder than others and try to plan ahead for potential problems, even though we know that careers, family, and health can throw curveballs at any time.
But this year of marriage was not hard. Parts of our lives were hard, with managing two different schedules and supporting family during difficult times and attending funerals and reviewing our finances and squeezing in spring cleaning and navigating changes in our church and trying to avoid discouragement with another year of tests, evaluations, and late nights. But our marriage stayed strong.
Because I still rush home to see him. And he still swings by the house on his lunch break if he knows I’ll be home. And I still make grocery lists and he still starts cooking as soon as I am on my way home from Muncie. I’ve gotten better at writing down his Mensa meetings and he’s shown improvement in remembering my church and Junior League commitments. We still alternate between tossing in loads of laundry and putting a load of dishes in the dishwasher. We don’t blame each other if one person ends up too busy to cook or run errands and just agree to order take-out instead. We still occasionally pay someone else to clean our toilets so we don’t accidentally end up living in squalor while we’re up late trying to finish writing papers. Husband studies in the den if I want to watch TV in the living room and I try not to blast Kelly Clarkson too loud if he’s trying to take a quiz. I accompany Husband to his medical conferences and he joins me on my blogging excursions.
Some way, somehow, we’ve come to this deeper level of understanding. Husband can tell when I’m just grumpy from a long day of commuting or actually sad from a discouraging day with clients (the crying in the bathroom is usually a clue). I can distinguish between Husband’s moods to know if they are a result of being tired from working 12 hours or if they are coming from feeling stressed about his future residency options (again, the stress rash usually provides a strong hint).
For the first time since we were married, I’ve realized that I have something to lose if Husband and I were not together. Of course, I never wanted to lose Husband, but I think I held on to some source of independence and an attitude of “I’ll still be fine on my own.” But this year has really shown a transition to interdependence. I rely on Husband and our teamwork is essential to my personal, professional, and married self. Together, we do more than I could ever do on my own. I think that bothered me for a little while, but it doesn’t now. I’m not fighting against it. I’m embracing it. And I’m thankful and amazed and mystified.
I mentioned third year has been full of questions. They’ve also included thoughts, like “What would our lives be like if we hadn’t met?” and “How do we get to be so happy when other people are so unhappy?” and “Why are we the lucky ones?” I can guess that it’s things like the unchangeable time and place of our births, our mutual attraction to intelligence, our shared values, the prayers of our parents, and our annoying persistence, but I really don’t know. Maybe it wouldn’t be as fun if I had figured it all out already. Maybe our rough times are twenty years down the road. Maybe the billions of factors throughout time and space that brought us together need no more explanation. Maybe it’s nice to have a little mystery.
I keep telling people that 2018 is our BIG year with comprehensive exams, board exams, mission trips, away rotations, dissertation proposals, and residency applications, but I really know that EVERY year is a “big” year with the potential for career decisions and new houses and babies and family drama. I’ll take it, though. A little mystery and interdependence can go a long way.
I can’t wait to see what happens next. 4th year of marriage, here we come!
This is SO encouraging to read! Lately I feel like all I hear about is how relationships are doomed to fail eventually and it really weighs on me. I’m so happy to read about a couple that is three years in and still head over heels 🙂
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Yes!! I also get so sad when professors tell me that marriages in grad school won’t work out or when so many people around me are getting divorced. I think happy and healthy relationships ARE possible and I’m so hopeful other people can have them, as well.
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What a lovely post. Our 3rd year anniversary is tomorrow and I love this tradition of documentation.
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Awww, congrats to you! Do you have anything exciting planned to celebrate?
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Every year we go to a new fun restaurant that we’ve never tried – so that is always a treat! We also added in a little ‘year in review’ inspired by your post. So, thank you for that!
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Aww, that’s awesome! Trying new restaurants is definitely one of my favorite hobbies. I will def have to check out your year in review post!
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An insightful, and important, reflection. I have mentioned before that I have a daughter finishing up her first year as a grad student. She has been married for nearly ten years and pins a lot of her succes to focus on school on her husband’s ability to roll with the punches. Do they get moody? You bet! However, they deal with it. It is nice to read about a successful, growing, marriage.
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Yes, absolutely! Your daughter has figured it out! Not “sweating the small stuff” has been a huge asset to our marriage. So happy your daughter is also figuring out how to successfully manage graduate school and marriage!
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Beautiful, Lindsay! Thanks for sharing!
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(From Rachael M.)
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Aww, thanks, love! So glad you stopped by!
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Happy Anniversary! ❤
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Thank you!!
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Congratulations on your anniversary. It is so refreshing to read of genuine love and teamwork. Cheers to you both and wishing you many many more years of happiness. 🙂
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Aww, thank you!! I love reading other people’s love stories, so I’m very happy that mine is continuing to unfold.
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Happy Anniversary! I love this paragraph – I am very fortunate that my husband & I are in the same position!
“Our third year of marriage has been full of my questions, like “How can we really have it this good?” and “Is it really possible to be this happy with your partner?” and “What are we doing right that we can share with others?” because hearing about marriage problems now makes me incredibly sad. I want everyone to be happy and full of love. We are at the age of almost-30 when some of our friends are getting divorced and several others are starting to have growing pains, which means frequent fights, patterns of ignoring, and short-term separations. Husband and I are not naive-we fully expect that some years of marriage will be harder than others and try to plan ahead for potential problems, even though we know that careers, family, and health can throw curveballs at any time.”
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Awww, I’m so happy to hear that about you and your husband! My marriage has been such a blessing in my life and I always get excited to hear from other people who feel the same way. Thanks for reading!
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Congratulations! As a marriage coach I love to hear these uplifting testimonies. Sounds like you and husband would love creating a marriage mission statement. What is the purpose of your marriage? What do you want to accomplish together? What would be your marriage legacy? I’m sure the two of you would not only work well together but when aligned toward the same vision would make an incredible impact on this world!
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Happy Anniversary ! Thank you for reading my article and visiting my page. I love your blog already and this blog post hits the spot. I am newly married but I had been in a relationship with my Husband for almost three years (This June). Your post too allows me to reflect on how a marriage can be and should be. Challenges will always be there but both partners have to work together and I think that is the true importance of a marriage working together as one without the load falling all on one partner.
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Aww, congrats to your on your new marriage!! I definitely agree about the “working together” part. Thanks for stopping by!!
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” We still occasionally pay someone else to clean our toilets so we don’t accidentally end up living in squalor while we’re up late trying to finish writing papers. ”
I am so glad I am not the only one! I always envision other people keeping a perfect house all by themselves while they go to school (or whatever it is you two do)!!!! I have considered splurging on a house cleaning, but so far just still alternate between squalor for weeks and then clean for a day, then squalor for weeks and so on!
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Haha, yes! I’m always confused how just the two of us make the house so messy! I’m scared for adding kids into the mix because we’re messy enough as it is! Even after we have it cleaned, we spread stuff all over the next day, but at least the toilets are clean!
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“For the first time since we were married, I’ve realized that I have something to lose if Husband and I were not together. Of course, I never wanted to lose Husband, but I think I held on to some source of independence and an attitude of “I’ll still be fine on my own.” But this year has really shown a transition to interdependence. I rely on Husband and our teamwork is essential to my personal, professional, and married self. Together, we do more than I could ever do on my own. I think that bothered me for a little while, but it doesn’t now. I’m not fighting against it. I’m embracing it. And I’m thankful and amazed and mystified.”
This is a beautiful, beautiful, paragraph!
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Happy anniversary it truly does get better with age just remember God and communication are key…
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I love this idea of writing each year of marriage! I really enjoyed your post! Thanks for the inspiration! Glad you and your hubby are not having those struggles a lot of us have! I am going on my third year of marriage now! ❤️
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